and everything ended Monday, December 20, 2004
went bowling with xinda,tong, j.w,pauline and y.z...we saw elvis on the way there...den those meeting us in yishun were late as usual...we played till 1 plus...and left...cuz we're meeting stanely...we went to his hse fer the bbq party thingy...was alritex larhs...we were playing with his doggy...the doggy was menstruating...lols...and she's not feeling well and she vomitted...blahx...
they were singing...den we had bbq....and they were pushing each other down the water...bleahx...all of us were drenched...so many ppl carrying a person and throw them into the pool...hahax...*smiles*...i kind of like hurt my left hand AGAIN...it's like so many times le...my bone hurts...the pain is acting up...blahx...we left stanely's hse at 10 plus lopx...and i reached hm at 12 plus...*winks*...
i'm the centre person again...i play the good and bad gurl AGAIN...arhs...i'm sick of it...they were saying negative things abt him...saying he's not helping them out...he onli helps gurls...den wad u wan me to sae??agree on wad they sae?defend him??blahx...i juz sit there and hear their complains keep quiet...wad else can i do?
he's not even giving me face lopx...he treat me as if i'm invisible...i'm not transparent lopx...i got eyes to see...i saw everything...wad u wan me to do...i already treat it as if i didn't see anything...even jian wen they all see it le...they push me aside...they dun wan to let me see wad u are doing...budden i got eyes...i still saw everything...even they knw how i feel...
they are telling me to give up on u...forget abt u...izzit possible?i guess i still need time...my heart aches everytime i sees him down there...doing all those stuff...it's like i'm seeing a dramatic movie..i'm not ur doll lopx...u make me hurt again and again...
Where were you when skies were grey
1:15 AM <3
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