and everything ended Friday, December 23, 2005
i was lazing around for the whole of this morning and early afternoon.i was too tired to do anything and besides,i don't feel like doing anything.
something that i shouldn't be thinking of kept coming to my mind larhs.i was wondering wth happen to me.
for the past few months,i felt as if i had the authority to control my feelings however now,i could not.
i wish i could be like last time,having hard feelings for others,treating them as if i was treating a stone.
however,i could not do it now.the more he's concern about me,the more i will fall in deeper.wth.
he's away for the time being and i still wonder why i'm still in confusion.i always thought it could make me think even deeper when he's away but i was wrong.
soon,like any foolish people would do,i decided to immerse myself with lots of things to do.well,i do have lots of things to do just that i didn't have the mood to do so.
i did some spring cleaning and some household chores.it was so tiring larhs.in the end,i was very glad that i did constructive stuffs instead of brooding over such stuffs.
wrapped up the christmas presents for my cousins,neice and newphews just now.i shall line up more programmes for myself to keep me busy for the time being.
Where were you when skies were grey
3:25 AM <3
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